I need to add this. If I write about it, maybe I understand it one day. I was supposed to meet susan at Friday’s event. I told her about it and she was interested. But she mentioned several times that she would appear with m., her boyfriend. The entire story is long, complicated and from my point of view awful. He can’t stand me and vise versa. I can only meet susan if he doesn’t know or, I guess, if susan is forcing it against his will. So Friday I made sure I went with other friends of mine to avoid any meeting with m. on susan’s side. Susan came, but we didn’t met for said reasons. I am so sad about it. I don’t understand how susan can accept a situation like that. I can’t imagine she’s happy, I have no imagination of m.’s feelings, if any. I am totally irritated. All I wish is meeting susan and talking to her (even this is on m.’s order not always possible…) as you do with every other person or friend. But unfortunately it seems impossible. I am asking myself everyday, how can people do this to each other. I don’t understand it, mostly because I am part of it. I think that’s the most disturbing part. I have never experienced a situation like that in my live so far, not even remotely, and I am very convinced it will never happen again.